The No Ringgit Traveler

Yesterday a friend of my asked me how's my visa going on. Tell you, i hate to answer. It made my heart pumping like a generator and if i cut my vein i think i could see the blood squirt out and within 30 seconds i'm dead.

Then she said i sound like giving up. Tell me what am i suppose to do? I done my part. I wrote a long bloody letter to them. I did my medical check-up that cost me a grand. Cut it short, i did every thing they asked me to do.

So now, it's just waiting game again.

At this stage, i'm picturing malaysia in my head. It's been weeks i keep dreaming about my homeland and each image appear to be malaysian. i guess i miss malaysia dearly. My mind and body keep telling me, "this isn't yours anymore".

Perhaps that's true. New Zealand not for me anymore. Frankly speaking, i dont see myself in 5 years holding a managerial post here. I am high achiever and Auckland proved to has reach equilibrium. It's like when to put sugar in plain water, it will dissolve. But at this stage too much sugar than water and no matter how hard to stir it wont dissolve. Saturated.

I don't mind coming back to malaysia, for i know i will be better there besides get paid lesser but hey if you do the calculation, it's about the same actually. In here, i paid 20.8% of my weekly earning for tax per se. Another almost half to rental. Then minus grocery expenses, hardly to save money. Unless, its ramadhan.

In the meantime, i applied some jobs from jobstreet but yet to receive any response even the positive one. Maybe i'm using nz address.

Everyone tells me, getting job won't be a problem to me. But i'm not sure. My plan once in malaysia, i wanna be picky. Yeah for real.

I wanna get a better pay. Better position. Better office. I think i'm afford to be picky in kl. hehe..

to immigration nz, to hell with you. if you reject my application. please return my passport as soon as possible. Oh yeah someone told me, malaysian passport at black market worth 4000 euro.

oh hope they don't lost mine. i have a cute pic!..haha